So with my brother getting married in March of 2009 and the fact that Justin and I will be paying for this on our own we decided to give ourselves plenty of time.

The date is set for May 15, 2010.

Originally I wanted to just go to the JP, but Justin really wants a wedding where he can celebrate with family an close friends. I get that, I really do.

Since I've been searching and researching so many weddings it has actually has got me interested in having a wedding. The hard part for me is the part where the father walks the daughter down the isle and father/daughter dance, I won't have either of those. Not because my father has passed but because he could really careless about me.

I feel like getting this off my chest, if you care to read keep on, if not then this is the end of the post. I'll get back with more details and on a happier note next time!

He was gone out of my young childhood for a long time, popped back in and of course I wanted to be Daddy's Little Girl. We had a rocky relationship mainly because he had a new wife, new step-children and when I would go visit they are who I really spent time with. He never really gave me the Father/Daughter relationship that most have. When I was 18 I got pregnant and then that pretty much sealed the deal with us. He never made it to my high school graduation, he finally came back around when my daughter was 2. We had a nice day together after that we spoke on the phone and I really thought the Father/Daughter relationship would follow, since I was older. I hoped he had realized what he missed with me and wanted to make it right. I was wrong. Shortly after that I announced I was getting married and really wanted him to walk me down the isle. He said he would but then one week before the wedding he left the country. He didn't even have the guts to tell my my stepmom called to tell me. I was crushed, luckily my mom's father was a big part of my life and he stepped up to walk me down the isle. It was a few years and two kids later that he emailed me out of the blue, asked for forgiveness and I let him back in. I love to punish myself I guess. I talk to him from time to time, he misses my birthday but some how manages to call on Christmas.

So that brings me to the present..... I sent him an email and to this day still have not gotten a response or call. My mom even emailed him telling him how great it would be for me if he would come and support me on my day.....she hasn't heard from him either. END OF STORY!